My Story

I have been asked on several occasions to tell my story.  Basically, who I am, where I come from, and what makes me think I can speak about God or anything that has to do with religion or the church or anything else anyone holds dear.  I think I should address that at some point but it will not be in this entry.  Maybe someday, but for now, I will let my words speak for themselves.

You see, I have always told God that I do not want any of this to be about me.  I do not want it to say anything about me or to have anything I have said or done to influence the words that I am trying to pass on.  God has agreed but then again, I have no idea what he has planned for the future.  Maybe someday it would help for people to know who I am but I don't think that day is today and God tells me I need to get more of his message out there before I can think about what the future is.

I want my words or writings to speak for themselves and to allow others to make up their own minds about what they mean and how you can relate to what I have written.  I do not want to cloud anyone's judgement or allow any preconceptions to be made or influenced by who I am or what I have been through or done.  I am just trying to pass on things that He has tasked me to pass on.  It has nothing to do with me.  It may be right and it may speak to you or it may not speak to you, but who I am should have nothing to do with it.

God tells me to put the words out there, as crudely as I do it, and see what it invokes from people.  As far as I know it invokes rage or misunderstanding or maybe it actually does speak to people and allows them to consider their relationship with God.  I can't say one way or the other and I do not want to.  I want you to come to God in your own way and in your own time and if my words help, then that is great.  But in the end, all my intention really is, is to invoke thought.  To maybe lead you to think about what you believe and think about whether your relationship with God is what you want it to be.  That is all.  I am not a preacher, I'd like to be a teacher, but in the end, that is up to you.  I do not want to be the story, I just want to tell it in the best way I know how.